Maybe This Time

March 31, 2010
Wednesday, 8:13 P.M.
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Our Lady of Consolation Nursing Home did without the services of their Nursing Administration assistant today. I took a mental health day. Of course, I didn't tell them that; just said I didn't feel well, but the truth is, I have a lot of things weighing on my mind these days. Every once in a while, I begin to feel overwhelmed by the circumstances surrounding me, can't turn off the rambling thoughts in my head and realize that it is time to get them sorted out and determine what my future actions should be. Then supreme effort goes into editing that down to what those actions actually will be. Very often, they are not one and the same. And very often, night will fall and the way still is not clear. This is one of those nights. I am completely aware of what I should do but I know I won't do it. Or maybe this time I will...