Merry Way

April 29, 2010
Thursday, 6:13 P.M.
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Someone I care very deeply about is a drug addict, to be more precise, he is a crack addict. He was in recovery for the addiction for a lot of years, but over the past five or six, he has wandered back into dabbling with the pipe every once in a while. Now it has become more than once in a while, more like three or four times in a while. I've been around substance abusers my whole life and each and every one of them ends up the same way-hurting those they love, breaking their hearts, disappointing them and generally making their lives miserable, then saying "I'm sorry" expecting to be forgiven and going on their merry way until the next time. What crap!! Finally, after fifty years of putting up with these diseases in one form or the other, always playing the role of the loved one and never the abuser, I've had it. I don't have it in me anymore to forgive and/or forget. This life is too damn short to keep setting yourself up for what you know is just going to be more hurt. It's time for me to go on my merry way...